I hate when people lie to me and thinking I am an idiot.As if I don't know what is going on.As if I have no brain to think and no eyes to observe.Crap!But I don't feel like revealing it,I don't want to ruin the friendship.So what the hell can I do other than keep ranting here like a crazy woman.Arrgh!Give me break!What so big deal that you can't tell me the truth but to lie to me.Tell me and I would understand.What are friends for!How many times am I going to say this?I hate people treating me like an idiot!grrrr....

New addiction..

Bruno Mars-Just The Way You Are



This song is nice.Well, is sweet. So, Enjoy..






Jayesslee version is awesome..

Awesome week..

well,I had an awesome week this week.Eventhough this week cwas kind of busy but I really enjoy it a lot.Enjoy in the sense of finishing up all my assignment,presentation and celebrating festival with my friends and family.Went to royal melbourne show, I went there obviously is not for the ride, is for all the cute animals. I went there 2 years ago but apparently I did nothing and came back again. Still remember that was because my friend from Malaysia got really sick when we reached there so I went back with her and take care of her. So, this year I went with my beloved sister and her friend and also my friend's brother from Adelaide-Eugene. Thanks Eugene for trying so hard to wanting to win me a care bear but is ok even if you didn't got it in the end. You did won a super cute eerr..not sure what animal is that and hey!my sis love pink,so yea.haha.

Next, Mid-Autumn Festival.Well I didn't expect to celebrate with anyone since my sis need to work and everyone is like so busy but thanks to my sis's awesome friends who invited me over to celebrate with them. We end up watching lion dance and stuff in 206 bourke street then we had our dinner in Jalan Alor. The food there not too say is awesome but not bad, at least better than old town. Apparently all the chef there are from Malaysia but the funny thing was the manager is from Hong Kong. haha!But never mind eventhough he is from Hong Kong I still need to thanks him for risking himself to give me soooo much cute lantern infront of everyone.Guess what, one of the customer was actually complaining behind saying how come I got the free lantern and they don't have and the manager actually said "come on!you are my VIP".BUAHAHAHAHA!I feel so honoured..hehe..Okay, then my sis and one of her friend were actually saying they want to sing K so we went Kbox after dinner.Sorry holding the mike all the time and thanks to all the gentleman for not being angry and don't mind I did that.Hehe.Jim kor kor..I really need to say I love your singing especially when you sing all the Zhang Xin Zhe's songs.I was sooo deeply falling in love with your singing.Okay, thanks god I didn't lose my voice.AWESOME!

The last event was SCARLET RHAPSODY ball.Okay it was really great and I find it worth it to be honest. Not only get to know all the awesome Malaysian (who are mainly lawyer to be) there but also the decoration and the food. I got Salmon!!!I was lucky because apparently they said the chicken was suckz.Hehe.So yea, I really enjoyed myself eventhough I was really sleepy. Can you imagine I actually fall asleep in SEVEN??SEVEN!!!!!!It was like so freaking noisy!And stupid Sherroy ONG!lied to me telling me epsin has the lowest % of alcohol.DAMN YOU!that was like 60%.Is that the lowest for you?Luckily I am strong enough and don't get drunk easily.Still dare to ask me "are you drunk yet?" can't wait to see me drunk is it?too bad you will never see it!Because I will never get myself drunk!You should know how high my alcohol tolerance is after you guys made me drank that much!anyway,thanks to this guy I just knew there paid for the alcohol for me and tiff.I promised I will pay you back if you ever send me your account number or if we ever meet again!hahahah!

So,that's all I guess.I just want to say I really enjoy myself a lot!my sis asked me am I trying to play hard now before exam because apparently my holiday is full of activities.haha.

cheerz~~

I feel so shitty now after knowing the news about my best friend broke up with her boyfriend.I know it through facebook and I was trying to ask her but in the end I stopped myself.I know she might not want to talk about it because apparently when she chat with me on MSN 2 weeks back she didn't bring the topic up but I can feel something is not right.I didn't ask, everytime she find me is the time I was about to sleep and she hardly online because of the stupid internet connection from her country.I never blame her for not contacting me at all these  months because before she left she told me she might not be able to online there.Before she left,she asked me a lot of things and asked me for advice about her boyfriend.I never expect that to be the end.I kind of know the reason why they broke up.Come on,I don't know why everything can be so realistic.I don't know why can't we have what we want and be who we want to be with because of the stupid reality.I don't know what's wrong with me.I just feel ARRGH!This is so not right!This is not what they deserved!Sometimes I really hate to grow up for knowing so much about this ugly word.I hate to accept something that is not right,accept this bloody reality!I am sick of this but what can I do?I need something to calm myself now and I really hope to talk to her now.I really miss her badly now.sigh~

Finally..

I am back!exactly 1 week!ARRGH!disaster!sick for 1 week!eventhough I am still not fully recover yet but at least I am sort of back on track now.Missed all the lab and test for a week isn't something fun, so many things to catch up!Anyway,about my sickness,didn't know viral infection can be so serious.I visited 3 doctors and got 2 MC in a week.Guess what!I didn't know Australia MC can be so professional and high class.hahahha!Well,no voice for a week can be quite fun though.haha!What else?Ohya, went for IV dripping because apparently I was dehydrated,when I reached home,my hand ache like ah,don't know how to describe and a huge bruise on on my hand.Haih.

During the whole week, I really appreciate everyone who helped me and cared for me. I want to thanks my sis especially for not being able to sleep at night because of me. Thanks her for taking care of me, send me to hospital eventhough she need to work. Thanks Carmen and Jasmine. Thanks Carmen for helping me to deal with all the Uni stuff, for helping me to run up and down to find out what to do if I missed the lab and test. Thanks Jasmine for coming over to accompany me eventhough she was having test, thanks her for making honey lemon cube for me. Lastly, thanks Jun Jun and Xuan for care for me soo much. I feel soo loved!!!muahahaha...

 my 1st Medical Certificate.

My 2nd Medical Certificate.

sick..

I am feeling very sick now. I don't know what is really happened to me. 1 day after i back from hospital then I get into this state. I was actually planning to go uni early to study. Who the hell will know I actually get sicker when I woke up in the morning. I ended up in uni early but didn't do anything at all. I am now in library and I was suppose to get some rest but those bloody people don't understand what is library for. Chatted so loud as if there are in their house. Keep banging the table for nothing. What the hell! Thanks to them I couldn't rest at all. I am feeling warm outside but cold inside. I don't want to be sick! I still have lots of things to do and study. Damn! Help me!:'(

Last night,one of my sis's friend got knock down by a tram in the afternoon.We were suppose to meet up for dinner together but my sis and I decided to meet them up earlier so that can come back earlier.When we reached his house,most of the friends were already playing cards and noticed one of the guy looked really pale and I started to suspect.While we were chatting happily,he suddenly fainted and only then I know he got knocked down by tram 4 hours ago.My 1st reaction was send him to the hospital immediately!But the lucky thing was he fainted only for a few second so I know is not that serious.While waiting for the taxi to arrive,he started to mumbling and he didn't even know he was doing it.I started ti get panic and afraid that he might hit his spinal and causing the suppression of nerve in the brain.Or it might be only due to the suden change of pressure and causing hypoxia in his brain.I started to try to figure out whats really happening on the way to hospital.the time I reached hospital,he already registered and waiting outside the emergency and trauma department.He looked better when I reached there and I kind of know what's really happened.I told him don't have to be worry.I kind of looked at the place he got knocked down and try to palpate and see if there is any abnormalities.There was a bit of edema but not very serious since was already 4 hours and by palpating i was guessing there weren't any internal injuries and breakage of ribs and hips bone.The nurse took his blood pressure,and the pressure was normal.That's kind of confirm my diagnosis which was only due to sudden change of pressure and hypoxia causing him to faint.we waited outside for about 5 hours and finally was his turn.My sis and all of his friends ask me to follow him in so I can explain to him what's the doctor was going to say if he was going to use any medical term.The result was what I guessed.I was right and I was so happy because this was the 3rd time I diagnose about the people who are sick around me and I was right again.

By right I should be very happy and being motivated but I don't know why I got really depressed and upset.I kind of regret over the decision I had made.I started to doubt on my capability and my determination.I am scared and confused.I hope I can make it through and be who I want to be as soon as possible.I was dreaming about a machine which can bring me to the future.I hate to stuck here in this stage of life.It feels really sucks.

emo morning..

Is not a good thing to start a Saturday morning with such a emo weather,plus all the emo songs.Hah!happened to listen to David Archuleta's song when I woke up and my mind flew back to him again.The song "You Can" is the song I always listen to when he left for NS and whenever I am alone.This song used to remind me that I am not alone,remind me that I still have him to support me but the fact is always cruel to me.Now it became a reminder to remind me that nothing lasts forever,relationship is just another stupid game that will cost me a lot..my time,my energy,my tears,my brain cell,my money and the most important thing..MY STUDIES!

Anyway,I realised I am used to the life alone now.Everything by myself,no more busy worrying about something that is none of my business,wasting time helping people to deal with their problems when it is nothing to do with me.Starting to regret doing all these stuff,putting in so much effort for nothing.All I got back was,people took it for granted and that really pissed me off.I used to scared I will lose my friends,thinking maybe put in my heart and soul they will appreciate it but now the realities woke me up.I am not afraid being alone anymore.Frankly speaking,friends were one of the reason that ruined my relationship.I am not blaming my friends but myself.I used to put my friends in 1st priority till I didn't even noticed.He used to tell me hundred thousand times I still keep thinking I am right and did not neglect him thinking I need my freedom as well.After thinking,perhaps I really did neglect him.Well,learn from the mistakes.This is one of the suckest morning..

cheers~

Interesting facts about twitching orbicularis oculi muscle..

Okay,1st of all..orbicularis oculi muscle is the muscle around our eyes.This muscle has two parts: a palpebral part that allows us to open and close our eyelids, and an orbital part that allows us to have a wide range of expressive looks with our eyes, a good example being when our eyes open really wide with surprise.

So,I am having this twitching eyelid for almost 2 days.People always said if you are having left twitching eyelid means something bad got to happen on you and if the right eyelid is twitching will be the opposite meaning.That is why I keep calling back home every few hours to ask if everything is fine back in JB.Obviously I got really annoyed by this stupid twitching thing especially when I was trying to concentrate on studies.That's when I started to do some research on the causes of twitching orbicularis oculi muscle.I typed in "what is the cause of twitching orbicularis" and I got a very good article from some medical website written by a doctor.From the article, I finally get to clear all my doubts.

So,what is the actual cause for our orcularis muscle to twitch?Here we go.The peripheral nerve that acts as a faucet for our orbicularis oculi muscle is called the temporal branch of our facial nerve.So, for us to open and close our eyelids or open our eyes as wide as possible,the temporal branch of our facial nerve must allow just enough electricity to come out from our brain and brain stem and travel to our orbicularis oculi muscle.In the vast majority of cases of a twitching or fluttering eye,the problem is with the temporal branch of the facial nerve.When this nerve becomes fatigued, it acts like a worn down water faucet - the flow of electrons is no longer smooth and even.The result is that our orbicularis oculi muscle will twitch or flutter as it receives jolts of uncontrolled information from our brain and brain stem.

So the main reason for having this annoying twitching eyelid is due to fatigue which is kind of make sense for me as I didn't sleep well this few nights.I have been worrying about something(which I don't know what's that)that keep making my heart to beat so fast.Perhaps there are really too much stuff in my mind till I can't clearly figure out what's the main cause that makes me soo worry about.The thing that really freak me out last night was my heater on itself middle of the night and it actually woke me up.Thanks to that,I was awake for the rest of the night and straight off to uni.

Just a little bit more about my life today.I was super tired after all the twitching stuff and the freaking heater, I am afraid that I can't concentrate on my test.So, decided to buy a cup of long black(recommended by everyone as they said long black is really strong and guarantee will make you awake)and continue my studies in law library.Conclusion is "long black is also useless for me".This prove that my detoxification system is super fast that nothing works on me to make me feel refresh and energetic.I am disappointed.The good thing is I won't get drunk easily but don't worry I won't abuse the benefits of it.=)

That's it!cheers~