rainy day..

woke up in the morning...it was around 12 degree celcius..the wind speed was around 32 km/h..i decided to walk to southern cross instead of taking tram..well..from my house to southern cross station is only 2 stops away..but usually i chose to take tram mainly because i bought a monthly ticket plus i don't want to walk in cold..but today..i just feel like walking in the cold since my heart is cold enough..i enjoyed the wind that keep blowing towards my face..i waited for around 15 minutes and i decided to take the train from flinders station instead..because the next pakenhem train will be in another half an hour..

in the train..looked through the window..the sky was gloomy..as if it is going to rain..maybe because of the weather..i felt pretty down..then it really started to rain..it made me think of a little girl was crying and the tears kept dropping and landed on the window..the whole scenery was so depressing..

reached uni..i was trying to find out where to submit my lab report..i walked around the building and finally found the box that stated on the cover sheet..i submitted the report into the box with my freezing hand..inside the office i saw this girl who are in the same tutorial as me..when i walked out the office with her..i saw a guy waiting outside the office..and the girl was smiling..i can tell that guy is her boyfriend from the way she looked at him..she started to talk to that guy.."oh god..i'm freezing.."..and the reply was "come..let me hold your hand.."the guy hold her hand gently and put it in his pocket..and my heart suddenly stop beating for a second..can feel that my heart was actually aching..i'm not sure why am i arranged to witness this kind of scenario in this state of my life..and the sky started to rain again..is the sky feeling upset for me as well?raining while i was walking around uni..and yea..i got all wet..but in the rain..all i saw was all e couples walking together and the boyfriends were trying to protect their girlfriends from getting wet..all i felt was down down down..especially when i was trying to mourn for my past last night..

today..basically is not a good day for me..depressed depressed depressed..yes..all girls are silly creatures..GIRLS..STOP DREAMING..THERE IS NO FAIRY TALES IN THIS REALISTIC WORLD..
well..maybe i should get used to this as soon as possible..winter is coming..how am i going to survive like this..jia you ba..hopefully i can do it..

cheers~