Leaving + complicated feelings...

watching the clock on the wall

been a while since you called

i can't help but wait

it's late and i can't get no sleep

something's different this time

it just doesn't feel right

have we broken in two?

am i reli gona lose u tonight?

u come walking in

tears in ur eyes

pretending like it's alrite

but i know u're leaving

i know that smile

i can tell you've been crying

you're gona say goodbye

i wish i could stop you

but you've made up your mind

i beg you dont go

but i already know

you're leaving

where does the time go?

between goodbye and hello

how did we come to this?

is there something missed along the way?

with your bags at the door

i wanna pull you in close

and hold you once more even though

i know you're leaving

i know that smile

i can tell you've been crying

you're gona say goodbye

i wish i could stop you

but you've made up your mind

i beg you don't go

but i already know

i know you're leaving

here comes the sleepless nites

here comes the tears i'm gona cry

here comes the last goodbye leaving us behind

oh this can't be right

i know you're leaving

i know that smile

i can tell you've been crying

you're gona say goodbye

i wish i could stop you

but you've made up your mind

i beg you don't go 

but i already know

i know you're leaving....

suddenly feeling emo again..not sure y..but i guess is cos of him..n dis song happened to play from my player..not sure whether is coincidence or fated..since i played it randomly..well..kinda miss him which i noe i shudnt..telling ppl i edi over everything was a lie..how possible 2 get over sum1 so easily..i envy those ppl hu can do dat..i hope i can too..but too bad i cant cos i m not dat kind of person..sud have a stupid thinking..hoping 2 have 1 mor day to b wif him..but come on..he is gone..n i shud insist to let it go..easy to say..feeling stupid n naive again..haih..

well..i don understand..y are ppl ard me changing so fast?i m feeling disappointed..wads wrong wif dis world..wads wrong wif every1's thinking..y will everything end up like dis?sud feel lost..wad will happen to dis world if a dr cont to behave like this when she is not supposed to be..isnt a dr supposed to save ppl from misery dat caused by sickness..n prevent e disease from spreading..being a good model infront of every1?wad happened to my idol when i was small?how will my beloved uncle think if he is still ard?or mayb i m juz thinking too much?mayb dey were like dat even when i was small..juz dat i don reli get in touch wif e dr-to-be/dr's world so i donno..i m feeling reli disappointed over everything dat changed aroud me..i hope u noe hu u r..including my "used to b" close frewns..everntho we seldom tok 2 each other..but i noe bout ur life..cos sum1 will update me eventually..hope u all wont disappoint me completely..

hope i can slp tonite..

goodnite to every1 n dis world dat kp changing...