As Promised..

If you are reading this, there you go, I did what I promised. from 5 songs to 21 songs!

Right, enough entertainment, off to bed..
Countdown: 60 hours to exam.. *scream!*

Night world..

一日一幅畫。。

This is what I did in library today, so tired of studying and drawing draws my concentration back again, I don't why, but for now, drawing seems to able to calm my mind down and allow me not to be so easily irritated. Studying for long hour in a day need a lot of determination, I am glad I managed to do it even with my laptop on. At least, I was not wasting time surfing or youtubing anymore. 5 more days! everything will be over and is time to start preparing for 2nd war..=D

Two is better than one. =D

I hope I can keep my current mood till exam over, I wish I can let go everything and concentrate completely on my own stuff. Hoping that nothing can stop me from doing what I want to do. No matter how tired I am, is all worth it, I guess...

randomness

I am so angry right now but I have no one to rant to. Realised that this is the only place where I can go to..I mean come..arrgh..whatever.. I am tired..physically and mentally..I don't know if is me or the stress level that caused me so easily irritated, even with my hair! I am sad, because people around me don't seems to understand my language, maybe I am from Mars. I find myself annoying when I start ranting, but the thing is, that's the only way I can get rid with all the anger, and also, I tend to forget whatever I ranted. I know I am unhappy with certain people, but I actually forgot the actual event that made me unhappy. I know I am weird, perhaps is just the way of me dealing with all these craps. I don't care how people look at me right now, they might think I am mean, I am self centered, I am pushy, BUT HEY! Remember you are chosen to help the students and stop giving me all the excuses! WHO ARE NOT BUSY RIGHT NOW with all the exam preparation? and you say you are busy when I was the one who did all the jobs? you don't have to deal with all the nonsense from those "president", all those nonsense from our so called seniors and yet you tell me you are busy? I haven even add in all my workload at home, CNY is around the corner, everything is waiting for me to settle, stuff to bring back to hometown, ingredients for reunion dinner, and ohya, all the bills and roadtax! yes..I hate beginning of the years, so much things to do and no.. I am always the free one to clean up the mess you all made. ahh..whatever, just hoping you will understand, I don't shoot you infront of people doesn't mean I am afraid of you but don't want to downgrade myself, and yea..I am slowly walking away from you, our frequency no longer the same, maybe it never the same. Yea..done ranting.

Found a new way to calm myself down, recently addicted to drawing, and I have no idea why, and I am starting to plan my post exam events already.

Post Exam To Do List:

~Steamboat

~Les Mis

~Sing K! 

~Korean Food!

~SLEEP! 

I am so gona do it even when I have no one to go with. I will just do it myself. I am a loner. =)

And yea, everything changed after holiday and I am more independent now. I have lose my so called best friends and I can't bug my Aussie friends. Although I am wishing someone to depend on, but I doubt there's anyone right now. Well..another piece of my drawing.

I wish I could tell you how much I want to make it right.

If I ever have super power, I hope I can read your mind

I don't like guessing game, and I don't like being played

You won' be able to play with my heart if you are no one to me

but fact is, you are

So I am hoping you could look into it and take it seriously

Acting cool doesn't mean I don't care

Maybe is just me being defensive

And I am just too tired to deal with anything

Maybe I am weak right now and I think a lot

When I start thinking, I assume a lot

the more I assume, the more vulnerable I am

Guess I am starting to talk crap

I NEED A BREAK! 

Off to bed. good night. 

I know this is random, I don't mean anything.

maybe yes maybe not.

overwhelming stresssss....

I should really stop drawing! but I can't concentrate at all.. =(.. need my patient and determination back!

SWEETNESS IN THE AIR!!!  =D

bored...

This is what you do when you are sick of studying..=(

                                          Can never draw the eyes properly.. =(

I was supposed to sleep now, but I have no idea why tears just flow down, having heartache out of the sudden. Just feel like crying out loud, not sure if is due to exam and am feeling stress or I am missing someone who I should not miss. Hating this kind of feelings knowing that you don't mean anything to him and I am still holding back here. Horoscope book always say that Pisces need 10 years to forget someone, I never believe that, but now, I am accepting it, forgetting someone completely is not easy, no matter how badly he/she treated you in the past, deep in your heart he/she still stand a place. He/she will be part of your memories till you leave the world. Not sure if I am naive or silly, I thought they will feel it if I treat them with my heart, but fact is not. I don't know what am I thinking now, I don't know who is in my mind now, sometimes I wish I have selective amnesia, forgetting those unpleasant memories. Trying hard not to let this emotion break down to happen again, but I failed again. What should I do to stop it?

01.01.13

Happy New Year to alllll my family and friends! May all the bad memories stuck in year 2012 and more good things will join us this year! Last year I cut my hair short, and this year I did the same but not as short as last year and I changed my spec! Hopefully a new look will bring me more luck! Hope that whatever I am wishing for will come eventually. =D

New Year New Look! 

So, how did I spend my last night of year 2012? Sadly, I spent it alone in my room together with my phone and laptop, decided to take a break and rest for a night, got myself away from all the studies, waited for my parents and brother to come back from airport, waited to facetime with my sis, and countdown myself. Oh yea, thank you for keeping me accompany till I fall asleep last night, thought that's not I am longing for, but still I appreciate it a lot, thanks for sharing all the nice photo of food when I was waiting for my dinner + supper to arrive. Though the countdown wasn't a grand one, no celebration this year, no family reunion, but counting down with sis through facetime is an new experience as well. I am grateful enough to have what I have now but it would be better if I am celebrating it with the way I want it. Oh, and not forgetting all my sweet kids who texted me and sent me all the sweet personal messages, you girls and boys are really awesome, and also my seniors, you girls are just so sweet to keep me smiling all night. Sent me a message just when you thought I was asleep instead of sending it personally to me just because the messages was too mushy, so cute of you! HEY! all I wish to say is I am contented and blissful to have you guys in my life, past few years might have a better celebration but I have better friends appearing in my life this year. Thanks to those friends who stayed back and back me up all the time when I was down, and thanks to those "friends" who left me behind to make me stronger and matured and also to make it easier to filter non true friends out of my life. =D 

Sorry for all the tweets last night, I know it isn't that nice to chat to tweet, but yea..that's how I communicate with some of my friends, so sorry to those who follow me on twitter! but Twitter did stop me from tweeting last night and this morning to stop me from spamming. HAHA!

Alrightey, care to know how am I going to spend my 1st day of year 2013, friends who knows me well will know I am currently a 100% nerd! so yea, am studying in UNI!! ALL ALONE! but well, being alone is nice sometimes, study buddy not here today, so guess my lunch for today will be milo!haha! 

Nerd in progress!

ok, I shall stop now and get back to study! Happy New Year again everyone! 

p/s: I am still waiting..=(

cheer~